Insecurity – Part 1: Conquering My Biggest Insecurity
Conquering My Biggest Insecurity
They say that when you die, your whole life flashes before your eyes.
I don’t have to guess — I’ve kind of tested this. It does flash by, but only the moments worth remembering… and, of course, the people you love.
The story I’m going to share with you today has earned its place in the highlight reel of my life. Because it’s the story of how I faced — and began to overcome — my biggest insecurity.
The Fear I Carried With Me
If you’ve read my earlier blog A Life Worth Enduring, you’ll know this already:
My biggest insecurity was being dependent — physically, emotionally, financially, professionally.
It may have been buried in my early life, but it took over completely after my accident… and then the breakup that followed. I had built this belief that I couldn’t really depend on someone else — not to help, not to show up, not to come through. If something had to be done, I needed to be able to do it. No fallback. No plan B.
On the surface, it looked like strength.
But underneath? It was fear in disguise.
A Mindset That Held Me Back
Professionally, this mindset meant I never trusted delegation. I always feared that if I outsourced something and the person didn’t come through, I’d be left to do it all myself.
So I taught myself everything — design, writing, pitching, strategy.
And yes, I’m proud of the skills I built.
But here’s the catch: I kept doing everyone’s job… and ignored the one job only I could do — growing the business.
That insecurity — the fear of depending on someone — was quietly caging me in.
The Turning Point
We always know what’s going on inside. We just don’t want to listen.
But when I began focusing on my physical transformation this year, something shifted. I reconnected with my body in a way I never had before. And that connection brought clarity.
I wasn’t just transforming physically — my mind and body were syncing like never before.
It was telling me exactly what I needed to hear:
“This insecurity is the wall in your way.”
And now I was finally strong enough to tear it down.
A Journey Begins
What happened next didn’t seem monumental at first. But it turned out to be the first step on a much deeper path.
It started on a trip to the mountains — with people I’d never met before.
Among them:
– A solo traveler who became a legit bro
– A newly married couple
– And an entire journey that was about to teach me something life-changing
That story — of ice, trust, untouched snow, and surrender — comes in Part 2.
Because this blog was about the moment I finally stopped avoiding what I already knew. The moment I decided it was time to rewrite the narrative of my own fear.
To be continued…
🔗 Next up: Insecurity – Part 2: The Insecurity I Buried in the Snow
